(30-01-2015)
Friday 30 January 2015
a four sentenced story
I said I loved him.
I said 'Goodbye'.
I kissed him...
And then I left.
(30-01-2015)
I said 'Goodbye'.
I kissed him...
And then I left.
(30-01-2015)
Willow Rosenberg
I could have handled it
I would have been fine
I'm not your responsibility
to save
don't need saving
I need to make my choices
just like you
I could have handled it
I know me
I would have been fine
but you never gave me the chance
I would have been fine
I'm not your responsibility
to save
don't need saving
I need to make my choices
just like you
I could have handled it
I know me
I would have been fine
but you never gave me the chance
"See, I don't get that, all this 'leaving for her own good' garbage. Because that's what it is!
You can't just give up because there's obstacles."
- Buffy the Vampire Slayer, 'Pangs'
(30-01-2015)
Heartbroken
I hate how much it hurts
this pain I have inside
I wish I could move on
but my heart does not abide
Silly as they seem
my feelings, they were true
And now I'm left alone
alone to lament you
(30-01-15)
Yet
Yet I still prefer these feelings
heart wrenching as they are
I know I'm alive
And despite everything
I love being alive
So I will celebrate these feelings
the proof of my humanity
the proof of my love
(29-01-2015)
heart wrenching as they are
I know I'm alive
And despite everything
I love being alive
So I will celebrate these feelings
the proof of my humanity
the proof of my love
(29-01-2015)
Now I See the Signs, too
All the small signs
shining obnoxiously in loud neon
- only to you
I was left in the dark
seeing no signs
I liked the dark
They say ignorance is bliss
and to me it was
The harsh light of day
those fucking signs
blinding me with ugly neon
I don't know
if I wish
that I'd seen them sooner
Kinda do, kinda don't
If I had
seen those signs
I wouldn't know you
quite like I now do
They say to smile even if it ends
but I will cry myself to sleep
tonight
Again
(29-01-2015)
shining obnoxiously in loud neon
- only to you
I was left in the dark
seeing no signs
I liked the dark
They say ignorance is bliss
and to me it was
The harsh light of day
those fucking signs
blinding me with ugly neon
I don't know
if I wish
that I'd seen them sooner
Kinda do, kinda don't
If I had
seen those signs
I wouldn't know you
quite like I now do
They say to smile even if it ends
but I will cry myself to sleep
tonight
Again
(29-01-2015)
Sunday 25 January 2015
Rebekah Mikaelson
Laugh at the girl
who loved too easily
She who gave her heart
to anyone
Anyone who showed her
the tiniest bit of affection
She would feel that affection
thousandfold
And thus she was lost,
swept away by a smile
Call her weak and foolish
clearly scared of being alone
Show no humanity
as you laugh at her pain
Ask if her heart
is worth having
when so easily obtained
Watch her slowly break
and crumble
As she fails to hide
behind that smile
(25-01-2015)
who loved too easily
She who gave her heart
to anyone
Anyone who showed her
the tiniest bit of affection
She would feel that affection
thousandfold
And thus she was lost,
swept away by a smile
Call her weak and foolish
clearly scared of being alone
Show no humanity
as you laugh at her pain
Ask if her heart
is worth having
when so easily obtained
Watch her slowly break
and crumble
As she fails to hide
behind that smile
(25-01-2015)
Untitled
It scares me
more than anything
The way you make me feel
How could I give you that much power?
(25-01-2015)
more than anything
The way you make me feel
How could I give you that much power?
(25-01-2015)
The Way I Fall
I hate the way I fall
Suddenly, out of control
Air pushed from my lungs
Tears streaming from my eyes
Terrified in anticipation
"When will I hit the ground?"
"How much will it hurt?"
"How long will it take
this time
to patch myself back together?"
Oh how I hate to fall
always uncertain
always frightened
always left alone
burning on the ground
(25-01-2015)
Suddenly, out of control
Air pushed from my lungs
Tears streaming from my eyes
Terrified in anticipation
"When will I hit the ground?"
"How much will it hurt?"
"How long will it take
this time
to patch myself back together?"
Oh how I hate to fall
always uncertain
always frightened
always left alone
burning on the ground
(25-01-2015)
I guess this is Goodbye
"So, I guess this is Goodbye"
Feet scraping the pavement, where fallen leaves laid left to rot.
"I guess"
She looked up at him, her eyes widening, heart pumping. She had known it for a while, yet it shocked her. He didn't face her, couldn't face her. He knew the confusion and the pain that was written on her face, for it was also inked over his own heart. He started, but fell silent. He tried again.
"I mean... This is what it's come to, right?" He still wouldn't look at her.
"I suppose so." In his ears her voice was clear and sharp. She felt as though it was nothing but a whisper.
They stood another minute, neither one of them wanting to go. But they could not stay forever, and they soon parted, walking off alone.
(25-01-2015)
Feet scraping the pavement, where fallen leaves laid left to rot.
"I guess"
She looked up at him, her eyes widening, heart pumping. She had known it for a while, yet it shocked her. He didn't face her, couldn't face her. He knew the confusion and the pain that was written on her face, for it was also inked over his own heart. He started, but fell silent. He tried again.
"I mean... This is what it's come to, right?" He still wouldn't look at her.
"I suppose so." In his ears her voice was clear and sharp. She felt as though it was nothing but a whisper.
They stood another minute, neither one of them wanting to go. But they could not stay forever, and they soon parted, walking off alone.
(25-01-2015)
And I'll be okay
Don't you worry about me
don't you ever dare worry
I can handle myself
and all the feelings that I have
Don't try to protect me
with gentle, ill advised lies
Don't spare me the pain
it is rightfully my burden
Don't try to save me
from a monster only I can see
Don't you worry about me
don't you ever dare worry
I can handle myself
and I'll be okay
(25-01-2015)
don't you ever dare worry
I can handle myself
and all the feelings that I have
Don't try to protect me
with gentle, ill advised lies
Don't spare me the pain
it is rightfully my burden
Don't try to save me
from a monster only I can see
Don't you worry about me
don't you ever dare worry
I can handle myself
and I'll be okay
(25-01-2015)
Saturday 24 January 2015
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Friday 23 January 2015
the losing of a child
the only thing that held them together, the only bond left, got so weak it snapped, their future blaring with its non-telling black.
as the darkness got closer, she reached for his hand, only to realise she was alone. the only one to fall over the black edge, his silent tears heard from above, her last look showed a glimpse of his smile.
she fell for an eternity, and then another. she forgot her name, her life, her soul, became only a piece of dust, falling, falling, until finally she stopped spinning, and landed on her feet.
he did not fall. he kept going, but walking alone, he dared not take her hand, saw the wild hurricane brewing inside, knowing it was a storm for her alone.
so he stayed on the edge, never crossing it, but close enough to look down. he heard no scream nor other sounds, except those of his own everlasting tears.
when she started to walk again, she was herself anew. her vision clear, her smile bright, her head held high. she walked with ease though remembered clearly, her eternities filled with darkness.
his shoulders slumped always now, his eyes no longer lit alight. he saw her first and straightened fast, his heart the unfamiliar song of hope sang. her smile was friendly and polite, eyebrows rose in question.
his heart stopped singing, as he realised, she recognised him not at all. he sighed and waved then turned away, continuing his walk alone.
as the darkness got closer, she reached for his hand, only to realise she was alone. the only one to fall over the black edge, his silent tears heard from above, her last look showed a glimpse of his smile.
she fell for an eternity, and then another. she forgot her name, her life, her soul, became only a piece of dust, falling, falling, until finally she stopped spinning, and landed on her feet.
he did not fall. he kept going, but walking alone, he dared not take her hand, saw the wild hurricane brewing inside, knowing it was a storm for her alone.
so he stayed on the edge, never crossing it, but close enough to look down. he heard no scream nor other sounds, except those of his own everlasting tears.
when she started to walk again, she was herself anew. her vision clear, her smile bright, her head held high. she walked with ease though remembered clearly, her eternities filled with darkness.
his shoulders slumped always now, his eyes no longer lit alight. he saw her first and straightened fast, his heart the unfamiliar song of hope sang. her smile was friendly and polite, eyebrows rose in question.
his heart stopped singing, as he realised, she recognised him not at all. he sighed and waved then turned away, continuing his walk alone.
(29-03-2012)
Passionate love
More than I can tell
More than I can show
an unguarded secret
I say no words
but they all see it in my eyes
Burning ever brighter
I am no air
it cannot consume me
only spread to others
You smile knowingly
I spark
because you
(23-01-2015)
More than I can show
an unguarded secret
I say no words
but they all see it in my eyes
Burning ever brighter
I am no air
it cannot consume me
only spread to others
You smile knowingly
I spark
because you
(23-01-2015)
That pain
That pain
sudden, unexpected
I shouldn't be surprised
used to it by now
The scars on my skin
red and bloody
hurt less than your words
incomparable pain
I thought
too little, too much
Not realistically enough
lost myself in fantasies
with a dream of you
I
needed you for me
to grow my smile
felt safe
felt happy
That pain, your words
Now silence
(23-01-2015)
sudden, unexpected
I shouldn't be surprised
used to it by now
The scars on my skin
red and bloody
hurt less than your words
incomparable pain
I thought
too little, too much
Not realistically enough
lost myself in fantasies
with a dream of you
I
needed you for me
to grow my smile
felt safe
felt happy
That pain, your words
Now silence
(23-01-2015)
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I was made
I was made
to fly amongst the clouds
Filled as they are with rain
so am I filled with sorrow
Only sorrow burdens,
and I was made heavy
A heaviness great shedding
of tears could not lessen
I was made, now chained
to the rock, to the earth
Gazing upwards, dreaming
My body small and light
I would not fly
The mind sank deeper,
heavier still
The clouds above shed their tears
and in the rain I took a breath
I started breathing,
and fell slowly in love
with my rock, with the earth
Then I lifted,
and flew away
For I was made
to fly
(23-01-2015)
to fly amongst the clouds
Filled as they are with rain
so am I filled with sorrow
Only sorrow burdens,
and I was made heavy
A heaviness great shedding
of tears could not lessen
I was made, now chained
to the rock, to the earth
Gazing upwards, dreaming
My body small and light
I would not fly
The mind sank deeper,
heavier still
The clouds above shed their tears
and in the rain I took a breath
I started breathing,
and fell slowly in love
with my rock, with the earth
Then I lifted,
and flew away
For I was made
to fly
(23-01-2015)
Because forever
Because forever only exists
if you stay the same
They can't promise you forever
you'll do good not to trust forever
'For you will live so many
forever upon forever upon forever
and none will last
but you
You will find yourself and
who you are
over and over and over
So trust no forever
Because forever only exists
if you stay the same
(23-01-2015)
if you stay the same
They can't promise you forever
you'll do good not to trust forever
'For you will live so many
forever upon forever upon forever
and none will last
but you
You will find yourself and
who you are
over and over and over
So trust no forever
Because forever only exists
if you stay the same
(23-01-2015)
Verses 1 2 3
She is unfathomable
Yet stands right in front of you
Her heart bursting with feeling
There's thunder in her eyes
Electricity flows from the touch of her lips
The storm outside is nothing
compared to her enigma
No thought escapes her
and she plays with them all
Her soul stronger by being shattered
And her storming eyes haunt you
She walks by the seaside
She dwells in the ocean
calmer after the storm
A soft wind plays with her hair
Her skin like seashells
coloured white, red, yellow
Once soft, now hardened
Her footprints never stay long in the sand
And I hide in the forest
Inside looking out
A runaway watching goddesses
I, a lonely, scared wolf
No thunder and no ocean
The raindrops sing me songs
as they land on the leaves
beneath my dirty paws
And as they face the storm
I'll keep hiding
deeper in the forest
(06-12-2014)
Yet stands right in front of you
Her heart bursting with feeling
There's thunder in her eyes
Electricity flows from the touch of her lips
The storm outside is nothing
compared to her enigma
No thought escapes her
and she plays with them all
Her soul stronger by being shattered
And her storming eyes haunt you
She walks by the seaside
She dwells in the ocean
calmer after the storm
A soft wind plays with her hair
Her skin like seashells
coloured white, red, yellow
Once soft, now hardened
Her footprints never stay long in the sand
And I hide in the forest
Inside looking out
A runaway watching goddesses
I, a lonely, scared wolf
No thunder and no ocean
The raindrops sing me songs
as they land on the leaves
beneath my dirty paws
And as they face the storm
I'll keep hiding
deeper in the forest
(06-12-2014)
It's like when I smile
It's like when I smile for no reason
my lips break my face
like the sun clears the sky
on a cloudy day
And I smile as my heart sings
(06-12-2014)
my lips break my face
like the sun clears the sky
on a cloudy day
And I smile as my heart sings
(06-12-2014)
From the Costa napkin
And I remember the way I fell
Over the edge and into Oblivion
I pictured your silly face
Laughing as I plunged to my
As I fell and faded away
*
Standing alone
In your empty room
Your still-beating heart bleeding through my fingers
*
'Cause you made me feel like
I was special above else
The way you never let me
take one step by myself
It's like I was a doll
made of glass, sat on a shelf
(30-11-2014)
Over the edge and into Oblivion
I pictured your silly face
Laughing as I plunged to my
As I fell and faded away
*
Standing alone
In your empty room
Your still-beating heart bleeding through my fingers
*
'Cause you made me feel like
I was special above else
The way you never let me
take one step by myself
It's like I was a doll
made of glass, sat on a shelf
(30-11-2014)
For under the light of the moon
For under the light of the moon
they danced all night
The trees brought music
by the wind in their leaves
The flowers whispered
and rustled on the ground
For they were barefoot
and connected to the Earth
Thanking the Mother
for all their life and joy
And they felt powerful
and as they felt they became
Their laughter echoing through the night
the witches under the moonlight
(02-10-2014)
they danced all night
The trees brought music
by the wind in their leaves
The flowers whispered
and rustled on the ground
For they were barefoot
and connected to the Earth
Thanking the Mother
for all their life and joy
And they felt powerful
and as they felt they became
Their laughter echoing through the night
the witches under the moonlight
(02-10-2014)
Every time she walks
Every time she walks
she steps with confidence
There's murder in her eyes
She's the Devil's Princess
On a path of darkness
She thrives
She walks among allies
Friends and enemies are the same
She walks among memories
Her life was never laid out
by anyone but herself
She chose
A tiny smirk
She'll crush your heart
She's happy
Her sisters are the stars
in the dark blue sky
Her brother is the moon
Her father is the Devil
who cares for his princess so
Corpses trail her path
Her bare feet dressed in blood
Never wore white
Innocence wasn't lost
just never found
Every step she takes
is filled with confidence
There's gleeful murder in her eyes
She's made it all an artform
Her shoulders are relaxed
Devil's Princess
She is happy
(25-09-2014)
she steps with confidence
There's murder in her eyes
She's the Devil's Princess
On a path of darkness
She thrives
She walks among allies
Friends and enemies are the same
She walks among memories
Her life was never laid out
by anyone but herself
She chose
A tiny smirk
She'll crush your heart
She's happy
Her sisters are the stars
in the dark blue sky
Her brother is the moon
Her father is the Devil
who cares for his princess so
Corpses trail her path
Her bare feet dressed in blood
Never wore white
Innocence wasn't lost
just never found
Every step she takes
is filled with confidence
There's gleeful murder in her eyes
She's made it all an artform
Her shoulders are relaxed
Devil's Princess
She is happy
(25-09-2014)
Your Turn - Fair Enough
I once picked a flower from
an apple tree
Put it on the ground to watch it
from above
It rained away that
summer for me
But will always remind me
of my secret love
an apple tree
Put it on the ground to watch it
from above
It rained away that
summer for me
But will always remind me
of my secret love
(2013-06-10)
Pre-exam poem
Breathe, child, or you'll explode
Who can know what the future will hold?
You who run
and laugh
and cry
Keep on believing that you can touch the sky
One day you will see with eyes like mine
old and tired, when stars no longer shine
You have an adventure in your hand
fly real high, before you land
Who can know what the future will hold?
You who run
and laugh
and cry
Keep on believing that you can touch the sky
One day you will see with eyes like mine
old and tired, when stars no longer shine
You have an adventure in your hand
fly real high, before you land
(2013-05-03)
Danger seems to follow me in my dreams
From scared to calm to happy in three relationships I never had
The younger boy with glasses,
being teased and mocked by his friends,
I took his hand in mine
and put my head to rest on his shoulder
and told him he's got my heart
And that I would take care of his
The red headed girl I used to love
she felt left out and mourned our relationship
I remembered our sweet kisses
and how brilliantly we shined together
She was my best friend
and to me, she still is
Talking to the older man with blonde hair
his scraggly beard so familiar against my cheek
He told me he would always love me
but he knew I had moved on
To something more healthy and pure
he wished me happiness
he saw it was right
and sighed beside my red headed girl
as I took the young boy's hand in mine
(2013-04-29)
The younger boy with glasses,
being teased and mocked by his friends,
I took his hand in mine
and put my head to rest on his shoulder
and told him he's got my heart
And that I would take care of his
The red headed girl I used to love
she felt left out and mourned our relationship
I remembered our sweet kisses
and how brilliantly we shined together
She was my best friend
and to me, she still is
Talking to the older man with blonde hair
his scraggly beard so familiar against my cheek
He told me he would always love me
but he knew I had moved on
To something more healthy and pure
he wished me happiness
he saw it was right
and sighed beside my red headed girl
as I took the young boy's hand in mine
(2013-04-29)
dancing with myself
And I'll be dancing with myself
and singing oh so loudly
I'll jump and I'll turn around
flirt with my reflection in the mirror
And she'll smile at me and she will know
How calm it makes me
to dance only with myself
and singing oh so loudly
I'll jump and I'll turn around
flirt with my reflection in the mirror
And she'll smile at me and she will know
How calm it makes me
to dance only with myself
(2013-04-27)
the Doctor's Explanation
a Doctor Who poem!
it is not the Sun
it is the Stars
they're moving
'cause we are running
with them at a rapid pace
the Universe is ours
to explore
to define
to love
[2012-10-08]
it is not the Sun
it is the Stars
they're moving
'cause we are running
with them at a rapid pace
the Universe is ours
to explore
to define
to love
[2012-10-08]
those small things
There are things
Small things, unnoticeable by most
Do they decide our fate?
and the charming prince will claim that
"No. I believe we make our own destiny".
to show that even in such old time
surely some had the sense of self-value
These things
though so very small
may not seem interesting
At first sight
but then as you go on
You start to wonder
just how Much
they have implemented on your life
Around every corner
something
will always be lurking
waiting just for you
Destiny might not be a part of it
But those small things
sure are
[2012-11-20]
Small things, unnoticeable by most
Do they decide our fate?
and the charming prince will claim that
"No. I believe we make our own destiny".
to show that even in such old time
surely some had the sense of self-value
These things
though so very small
may not seem interesting
At first sight
but then as you go on
You start to wonder
just how Much
they have implemented on your life
Around every corner
something
will always be lurking
waiting just for you
Destiny might not be a part of it
But those small things
sure are
[2012-11-20]
Blessed
Blessed be us,
to get showered by such blessed rain.
Blessed be we,
to get sprinkled by such tiny crystals.
Blessed be you
and blessed be me.
[2012-08-20]
to get showered by such blessed rain.
Blessed be we,
to get sprinkled by such tiny crystals.
Blessed be you
and blessed be me.
[2012-08-20]
some poems
120727
If it means I get to keep youI will give you this kiss
but know this, my sweet:
it will be furious in heat,
yet so cold you will shiver.
It will capture your heart
and you can never get it back.
Is this what you really want?
120723
A Shadow passes outside my windowSo silent, so slow
I do not know this shadow,
neither want I to know
He is waiting in the Dark
for something, I don't know what
I can not see his grinning face
but his mean soul
pierces mine
my love for you
Blossoms from the apple tree
starts to fall
and it looks a bit like snow
but these are identical
and warm
The sun shines in my face
I close my eyes
and my lips form a smile
I feel a breeze
and look at you
Your hair is golden in the sun
and your cheeks rosy
You smile
a smile I love
a smile for me
Blossoms from the apple tree
fall and fly in the air
get stuck in your red hair
We catch them for each other
the greatest gift of all
[2012-05-14]
starts to fall
and it looks a bit like snow
but these are identical
and warm
The sun shines in my face
I close my eyes
and my lips form a smile
I feel a breeze
and look at you
Your hair is golden in the sun
and your cheeks rosy
You smile
a smile I love
a smile for me
Blossoms from the apple tree
fall and fly in the air
get stuck in your red hair
We catch them for each other
the greatest gift of all
[2012-05-14]
The Secret
The field was green, full of tall, green grass.
A lonely tree stood strong and proud amongst them.
They sky was a dark, mysterious blue.
The air was filled with it.
Electricity.
In the middle of the field: a girl.
Her dress was ripped at by the wind.
Long brown hair flying in every direction.
She looked over the shoulder
and smiled.
The girl had a secret.
Electricity filled the air.
Her smile got wider as she looked at the sky.
A strong sound started,
a great humming,
suddenly around her.
'7...6...5...4...3...2...'
She spread her arms and they were wings
A lightning bolt finding her heart
Filling it with energy, with light
The girl soared high, higher, and higher still!
Over the tree.
Into the sky.
She became stronger
and faster.
The air around her changed.
Electricity now in her, stardust around her.
Away into the unknown Universe.
Flapping her strong wings
Finally finding home
Stardust covering every inch of her
A layer so thick she shouldn't be able to breathe
A very bright light
Coming from her heart
The heart of a Star
[2012-05-25]
A lonely tree stood strong and proud amongst them.
They sky was a dark, mysterious blue.
The air was filled with it.
Electricity.
In the middle of the field: a girl.
Her dress was ripped at by the wind.
Long brown hair flying in every direction.
She looked over the shoulder
and smiled.
The girl had a secret.
Electricity filled the air.
Her smile got wider as she looked at the sky.
A strong sound started,
a great humming,
suddenly around her.
'7...6...5...4...3...2...'
She spread her arms and they were wings
A lightning bolt finding her heart
Filling it with energy, with light
The girl soared high, higher, and higher still!
Over the tree.
Into the sky.
She became stronger
and faster.
The air around her changed.
Electricity now in her, stardust around her.
Away into the unknown Universe.
Flapping her strong wings
Finally finding home
Stardust covering every inch of her
A layer so thick she shouldn't be able to breathe
A very bright light
Coming from her heart
The heart of a Star
[2012-05-25]
three shorter poems
you
Your laugh is a waterfall
Clear and truthful
and so, so beautiful
The forrest around you
sparks with life
when they hear it
The clouds are very jealous
of everything around you
since they can't be near you
Electricity
Press the button
Send a spark
start a war
Claim a right
Bring down the world
Play your game
Cry your tears
Press the button
Forget to live
Love
Love
is a feeling so bright
and hard and strong
It hurts
it takes lives
and give life
Everything
is built up of
magic
and of love
[2012-05-25]
Poisonous Mushroom
I was walking
in a forrest
alone
at midnight
when the sun
was low
I was looking at the flowers
but collecting magical grass
and many a poisonous mushroom
I could not refuse
poison, poison, poison
It was my duty
They told me what it was for
'The Greater Good' they'd say
'It'll be better for us all'
That sounds so good
like they really care
But I know
They've made me a murderer
I am oppressed
but I do not resist
It was not better before
It was still a bad world
It was just a world without
Poisonous mushroom
[2012-05-28]
in a forrest
alone
at midnight
when the sun
was low
I was looking at the flowers
but collecting magical grass
and many a poisonous mushroom
I could not refuse
poison, poison, poison
It was my duty
They told me what it was for
'The Greater Good' they'd say
'It'll be better for us all'
That sounds so good
like they really care
But I know
They've made me a murderer
I am oppressed
but I do not resist
It was not better before
It was still a bad world
It was just a world without
Poisonous mushroom
[2012-05-28]
Spoil of War
Born early in the year
his dark eyes opened and blinked
amazed with the world
that was Athens 431 BC
His brown curls grew as he did
the child learned as the student
where life was his school
Some lessons he enjoyed
others made him cry
As a young boy he played
he fought with his friends
just as his father fought with the Spartans
until one day when he suddenly left
He liked to run
even though he had to stay
within the city walls
he felt
as though he could run
to the edge of the world
and the end of time
As a young soldier he was strong
he was excited
his first battle came
the excitement disappeared
He was a good Athenian
they all said
he fought well
he wanted to run again
before he could run
he would save Athens
The last battle came
he was tired
yet very proud
this would be the day
the day of their vict--
It was the day
the last
27 years of a life
from the beginning of the war
until the very end
[2012-05-08]
his dark eyes opened and blinked
amazed with the world
that was Athens 431 BC
His brown curls grew as he did
the child learned as the student
where life was his school
Some lessons he enjoyed
others made him cry
As a young boy he played
he fought with his friends
just as his father fought with the Spartans
until one day when he suddenly left
He liked to run
even though he had to stay
within the city walls
he felt
as though he could run
to the edge of the world
and the end of time
As a young soldier he was strong
he was excited
his first battle came
the excitement disappeared
He was a good Athenian
they all said
he fought well
he wanted to run again
before he could run
he would save Athens
The last battle came
he was tired
yet very proud
this would be the day
the day of their vict--
It was the day
the last
27 years of a life
from the beginning of the war
until the very end
[2012-05-08]
life as a mermaid
Swimming
floating
living in the sea
Singing
bubbles
playing with dolphines
Occationally saving drowners
or drowning them some more
Collecting pearls
for magic
and luring creatures to eat
Loving the ocean
Loving the storm
Hiding in the deep
[April 2012]
floating
living in the sea
Singing
bubbles
playing with dolphines
Occationally saving drowners
or drowning them some more
Collecting pearls
for magic
and luring creatures to eat
Loving the ocean
Loving the storm
Hiding in the deep
[April 2012]
the man with the smile
He smiled. He always wore a bright smile, to everybody it seemed to brighten the whole room. He did not smile directly at anything. He only smiled. For no apparent reason.
But a reason was there nevertheless.
He didn't talk. He answered questions. Sometimes he even asked a few himself, though that was not often. Usually he just stood there, smiling, in silence. They accepted it. It was who he was, and they accepted him. Not everyone could be as talkative as Sacha, whom it was very odd to see silent at all. They liked him even if they didn't really know him. Mostly they appreciated his smile.
Sometimes they talked about him, when he was not there, and the room seemed a little darker. They commented on his wonderful smile, saying how extraordinary it was that someone could always be so happy. 'I wonder what he smiles about', they said. None of them ever knew.
He was quiet, still smiling. For once, he wasn't looking. Usually he looked up, or out, or upon them. This time, he silently smiled down. As if he was secretly reminded of a good joke, and wanted to hide his joy.
When he after that day was gone, they asked about him now and then. Where did he go? What was he doing? Why did he, that last time, hide his smile?
They never got the answers to those questions. Perhaps, they said, he wanted to smile alone, just once. After a lifetime of sharing his smile with the world, maybe he, at least one time, wanted it all for himself.
(10-08-2011)
But a reason was there nevertheless.
He didn't talk. He answered questions. Sometimes he even asked a few himself, though that was not often. Usually he just stood there, smiling, in silence. They accepted it. It was who he was, and they accepted him. Not everyone could be as talkative as Sacha, whom it was very odd to see silent at all. They liked him even if they didn't really know him. Mostly they appreciated his smile.
Sometimes they talked about him, when he was not there, and the room seemed a little darker. They commented on his wonderful smile, saying how extraordinary it was that someone could always be so happy. 'I wonder what he smiles about', they said. None of them ever knew.
He was quiet, still smiling. For once, he wasn't looking. Usually he looked up, or out, or upon them. This time, he silently smiled down. As if he was secretly reminded of a good joke, and wanted to hide his joy.
When he after that day was gone, they asked about him now and then. Where did he go? What was he doing? Why did he, that last time, hide his smile?
They never got the answers to those questions. Perhaps, they said, he wanted to smile alone, just once. After a lifetime of sharing his smile with the world, maybe he, at least one time, wanted it all for himself.
(10-08-2011)
don't make me walk in the light
the path I walk is no longer Dark
tiny stars fill it with light
would the sun shine I'd be blind
I like the stars
they are somewhat company
but I miss
the Darkness
It is the Darkness that I know
the Darkness is familiar
and I know
it is safe
In the Darkness I could walk
unknown to everyone else
I saw them
my sight was good
they could not see me
I don't even think they wanted to
Now in the light
a new world to me
I see, but now I also talk
and they look back
answers
I like the stars
but I miss the Darkness
at least the stars are far away
(12-04-2012)
tiny stars fill it with light
would the sun shine I'd be blind
I like the stars
they are somewhat company
but I miss
the Darkness
It is the Darkness that I know
the Darkness is familiar
and I know
it is safe
In the Darkness I could walk
unknown to everyone else
I saw them
my sight was good
they could not see me
I don't even think they wanted to
Now in the light
a new world to me
I see, but now I also talk
and they look back
answers
I like the stars
but I miss the Darkness
at least the stars are far away
(12-04-2012)
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